Hello my dear watchers, if any of you still hang around.
I've been planning to write this entry for a while now, but I haven't really got to it. I should have done it sooner, but I've been delaying it, because most of the time when I try to write something, I end up not knowing what to say. It might happen again, but I'll try my best to get to what I want. I don't want to get too much into details since this is not my diary and noone of you should be attacked by the mess happening in my life, but I want to point few things out.
My last photo submitted to deviantart was in October. With a long pause before it. I feel like it was my last shout in the darkness. 2014 was a year full of changes in my life and I cannot say that it would be the best ones. I did meet amazing people. I did go to Canada which was my dream. But I also lost multiple friends, some of them were really close to me and I miss them. I wish I could say things got better in my life, but I don't want to lie. I lost interest in taking photos, I lose interest in writing because of everything happening in my life. So it's possible I won't be sharing any of my photos till I sort my life out. I need to figure out how to deal with everything and it might take some time. Also, this year is my senior year which means graduation and exams to uni. My school is very difficult, since it's bilingual section which means graduation in French (which obviously isn't my maternal language) from math, chemistry and physics and only czech in... czech. And all exams to uni are in czech which means even more subjects to study (you'd be surprised how different each subject can be in different languages). Plus I chose one of the hardest programmes where they accept only about 30 people out of 500+. But I still don't know if I won't take a gap year. Go work abroad. I want to study Neuroscience and there's no such programme here for Bachelor's degree. Only PhD. So I was thinking about studying abroad. I need to pass my graduation with the best grades possible, which certainly adds more stress, but I might be able to handle it. The issue is I don't have any certificate of my level in English and I cannot pass one now, so I need to wait a year to apply for a Bachelor's degree in a foreign country. I'm thinking about England, or United Kingdom as whole, and America. The problem is also money since I need to pay tuition which doesn't exist here it the Czech Republic (yet), only for private universities, so I might try to apply for a scholarship or I'd have to go with student loan. Anyway, it's not something I want to deal with right now, I already have too much on my plate so I'll try to deal with it as it comes.
I guess that's all I wanted to say. I'll be still active on deviantart when it comes to people I watch, I simply won't be publishing my own work (just as I haven't been doing for past 3 months). To end this with more positive message, I want to wish you all late Happy New Year, and I hope all your dreams (and resolutions) come true and that this year will be a good one for you. Also, when I'm talking about resolutions, I might share what I have as new year's resolution. I usually don't like to make them since when I don't accomplish them, it only makes me feel horrible, so this time, I really didn't want to make one. But in the end, I do have one. And that's to learn German. Me and my sis, we decided that we want to learn another language, and since she speaks German and I speak French, she will help me with German and I'll help her with French. We both already bought books so I hope I'll manage to accomplish this resolutions.
Anyway guys, hope you have a wonderful day and week and the whole year and I'll see you who knows when.
See ya all,
Listening to: Mumford & Sons - The Cave