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Racoon by Small-Jessamine
Racoon
I have no idea how I took this picture, but I quite like it, so why not to share right :p
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Polar bear by Small-Jessamine
Polar bear
While I was in Canada, we went to Toronto Zoo and we managed to see polar bears diving. It was hard to take any photos since there was a lot of people, especially little kids that were pushing me all over the place, but at least I got this :)
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Racoon by Small-Jessamine
Racoon
This photo is from the time when I was in Canada. We went to a conservation area and this sweet lady was following us almost the whole time (since one lady gave us some peanuts). It was really nice :)
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I should have never come to Canada. Cause now I have a huge hole in my heart for not being there.

Hi guys!

How are you all doing? I hope you're not getting so stressed from the start of school (as I do).

So I spent last 3 weeks in Canada and it was absolutely amazing. I got the chance to meet my dear friends and I didn't want to leave. I cried. A lot. And I miss them so much. You can't even imagine. I felt much better there. Maybe because all my troubles stayed in here. That doesn't mean I got rid of depression and anxiety, sadly, these things follow you everywhere. But in general, I felt happier. And I was really sad to leave. It felt like a new start, and these 3 weeks were one of the best ones in my life. I would go back immediately if I could. But it doesn't work that way. I gotta finish my last year of high school. And that's gonna be hard. To be completely honest with you, I'm freaking out. Tommorow is the first day of school for me. And I'm freaked out. I don't know how I'm gonna deal with it. I have to start looking for universities really soon and it makes me feel like crap. All the stress is coming to me in huge waves and I can't take it. I'm having anxiety attacks and I'm breaking down. It really sucks. I envy people who are okay. Yes, they are stressed too, or they are afraid. But they don't let it inside of their heads. They can deal with it. Most of the people can deal with it. And I'm not one of them. I'm scared of what my future will bring. I'm scared I won't get to uni. I'm scared I won't finish my last year of high school. Everything is happening too fast and I'm just being dragged by it, not being able to stop for a moment and look at it without freaking out. I don't know what to do. Right now, I just want to not be. 

Eugh, and I wanted this journal to be at least a little bit positive. Guess it's not how things work in my life. I'm sorry for being so sad, there's just too much going on in my life and I'm not handling it well. I'll add some photos when I get a chance to do so, right now, I should focus on the start of school and on looking for universities. Wish me luck, guys, and I hope you're doing better than I do.
  • Mood: Shitty
  • Listening to: The Lighthouse And The Whaler - Iron Doors
Hey guys,

how you doing? I know I haven't been around for a while, well, I did check my messages, but I haven't uploaded anything. For a long time. I don't even remember when was the last time I held my camera... Which is sad... Life is not going the way I'd want it to go. But I can't do much about it. 
Half of the summer holidays is already gone and I haven't done anything. I spent a lot of time running from one doctor to another one and in the meantime, I was at home doing stuff... Wasn't feeling motivated to do anything. It hasn't been an easy month and I'm still not feeling very well. 
But I don't really wanna talk about it. I just wanted to apologize for the lack of content (even though there's not many people around my page). I should get some new photos after I get back from Canada. Yes, I'm going to Canada. Which is absolutely amazing and I'm really thrilled to meet my friend and her family, plus Canada is a place I've always dreamed of visiting, so that makes me even more excited. I'm leaving on August, 13th and going back on September, 2nd. I'm kinda nervous, but I guess that's normal before every flight. This will be the first time I'm gonna fly completely alone. Last year I was in France on my own, but I flew with my friend (I met her on the airport and we had the same flight back). This time I won't have anyone around. I'm not scared of the flight, I'm more scared of the airport, to find my way and baggage and everything. But I hope everything will be alright. 
Honestly, I expected this to be longer, but I'm not feeling very well so I'm not very communicative right now. I just wanted to give you a quick update that I'm still alive and... that's it.
Hope you guys are enjoying the summer!

Bye bye
  • Mood: Miserable
  • Listening to: The Acorn - Dents

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Small-Jessamine
Jesika
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Czech Republic
Hi guys, I'm 18 years old girl that loves taking photos because it gives me a possibility to see the world my own way. But time is not my friend so sadly I don't have much time to do what I love. I'm a strange person, but there's nothing I can do about it. My biggest goal is to be free, to do what I love without any consequences. It's impossible, but that's why we call it dreams, right? Feel free to talk to me, I love meeting new people over the internet (in real life, it's a bit harder). Let's be crazy together!
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I should have never come to Canada. Cause now I have a huge hole in my heart for not being there.

Hi guys!

How are you all doing? I hope you're not getting so stressed from the start of school (as I do).

So I spent last 3 weeks in Canada and it was absolutely amazing. I got the chance to meet my dear friends and I didn't want to leave. I cried. A lot. And I miss them so much. You can't even imagine. I felt much better there. Maybe because all my troubles stayed in here. That doesn't mean I got rid of depression and anxiety, sadly, these things follow you everywhere. But in general, I felt happier. And I was really sad to leave. It felt like a new start, and these 3 weeks were one of the best ones in my life. I would go back immediately if I could. But it doesn't work that way. I gotta finish my last year of high school. And that's gonna be hard. To be completely honest with you, I'm freaking out. Tommorow is the first day of school for me. And I'm freaked out. I don't know how I'm gonna deal with it. I have to start looking for universities really soon and it makes me feel like crap. All the stress is coming to me in huge waves and I can't take it. I'm having anxiety attacks and I'm breaking down. It really sucks. I envy people who are okay. Yes, they are stressed too, or they are afraid. But they don't let it inside of their heads. They can deal with it. Most of the people can deal with it. And I'm not one of them. I'm scared of what my future will bring. I'm scared I won't get to uni. I'm scared I won't finish my last year of high school. Everything is happening too fast and I'm just being dragged by it, not being able to stop for a moment and look at it without freaking out. I don't know what to do. Right now, I just want to not be. 

Eugh, and I wanted this journal to be at least a little bit positive. Guess it's not how things work in my life. I'm sorry for being so sad, there's just too much going on in my life and I'm not handling it well. I'll add some photos when I get a chance to do so, right now, I should focus on the start of school and on looking for universities. Wish me luck, guys, and I hope you're doing better than I do.
  • Mood: Shitty
  • Listening to: The Lighthouse And The Whaler - Iron Doors

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kosett Featured By Owner 1 day ago  Hobbyist
That you for all the +fav  and the watch! You're awesome! I adore those raccoon photos you just posted!Heart 
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Small-Jessamine Featured By Owner 1 day ago  Hobbyist Photographer
Aw you're welcome, I really love your art style! :heart:

Thank you so much, hon! :tighthug:
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kosett Featured By Owner 1 day ago  Hobbyist
Thank you so much! You're comment makes me so happy! I am a dummy!  I hope you have a fantastic day!
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CicisArtandStuff Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2014  New member Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for the fav! Nem HEHE
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Small-Jessamine Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
My pleasure :heart:
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Joe-Maccer Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2014
:iconpopcornplz::iconfaveplz:Thank you, Jasmine!:iconblankboogieplz:

I hope you are well. :rose:
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Small-Jessamine Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Oh Joe, thank you so much for the points! :heart:

could be better, but it's alright :) I hope you're doing better than me! ^_^
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Joe-Maccer Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2014
I'm doing well. I hope you fell better soon dear. Sobbing hug 

My pleasure, Jasmine. :rose:
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flamingodancer123 Featured By Owner Sep 24, 2014
Thanks for the fav!
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Small-Jessamine Featured By Owner Sep 24, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
My pleasure :heart:
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